The distance you put between yourself and other is likely more fear than miles.
The beauty of attraction is that it draws you to someone who has what you have not achieved yet or did not know you wanted.
For a Christian the “fork in the road” is where you get to choose what is next in your life; God has already chosen to be with you either way you.
The accumulation of the choices you make, in life, become the memories of who you are and what you were.
You become the first victim of your own bitterness but unfortunately not the last.